checking on my sanity

i got this panic emotion that i cannot describe to you
my world is tumbelling down what am i, what am i gonna do
can't deny it, deny it, what am i going through
can not fight it, can fight it, now i'm looking for the truth

i don't wanna live a lie – checking on my sanity
'cause maybe baby i can do without – is it all a fantasy?
i don't wanna live a lie – is this my reality?
it's spinning round 'n' round day and night

i don't wanna lose control, but i'm falling
i just can't believe it
never thought that i would be the one
falling down

what the fuck was i thinking?

love tears me up like a demon.
opens the wounds and fills them with lead,
and i'm having some trouble just breathing.
if we werent such good friends i think that i'd hate you.
if we weren't such good friends i'd wish you were dead

what do i have to do?

i know exactly what you're thinking
but I swear this time i will not let you down
i'm not as selfish as i used to be
that was a part of me that never made me proud
right now i think i would try anything
anything at all to keep you satisfied
god I hope you see what losing you would do to me
all i want is one more chance, tell me

what do i have to do to make you happy?
what do i have to do to make you understand?
what do i have to do to make you want me?
but if i can't make you want me
what do i have to do?